The Spectacular Now

Compared to other kids, I haven’t had that many hardships. Not really. Well, shit’s happened. Stuff’s happened. Sure. But stuff always happens, right? The real challenge of my life, the real hardship, is me. It’s always been me. As long as I can remember I’ve never not been afraid. Afraid of failure, of letting people down, hurting people, gétting hurt... I thought that if I keep my guard up, focused on other things, other people.. if I couldn’t even feel it, then no harm would come to me. I screwed up. Not only did I shut out the pain, I shut out everything. The good ánd the bad. Until there was nothing. It’s fine to just live in the now, but the best part about nów, is there’s another one tomorrow. And I’m gonna start making them count.